Hidden Documents

Some time i feel what i think is beautiful in the world
 but these days i find its all my foolishness.
 those foolishness are always making me to live on and on.
Its really enjoyable to think odd.
When i do something ,
i rarely do it for me.
When i was studying in my small grades,
i usually did it for my parents to make them proud of me.
When i got married...
i saw people around me with wide smiles.
When the smile faded....
again i got married to make them smile more and more for me.
It gave me a kind of pleasure in gatherings i went out with him.
Its really nice to feel it.
I feel it right now.Good!!!
Now i thought,
 i feel it for what?
Am i making my self beautiful
 or he is mending it  inside???
Ough!its confusing now.....
 Really iam weak in entering in to others heart
to find out some important documents hidden.
Its hidden...Let it be hidden..Life long...,
i will try to fetch it out.
The pleasure before gaining is more sweeter always...