Hidden Documents

Some time i feel what i think is beautiful in the world
 but these days i find its all my foolishness.
 those foolishness are always making me to live on and on.
Its really enjoyable to think odd.
When i do something ,
i rarely do it for me.
When i was studying in my small grades,
i usually did it for my parents to make them proud of me.
When i got married...
i saw people around me with wide smiles.
When the smile faded....
again i got married to make them smile more and more for me.
It gave me a kind of pleasure in gatherings i went out with him.
Its really nice to feel it.
I feel it right now.Good!!!
Now i thought,
 i feel it for what?
Am i making my self beautiful
 or he is mending it  inside???
Ough!its confusing now.....
 Really iam weak in entering in to others heart
to find out some important documents hidden.
Its hidden...Let it be hidden..Life long...,
i will try to fetch it out.
The pleasure before gaining is more sweeter always...

Black Dove

Opening my window from my room,
i could see black doves on the projections of building for its great attire.
As we three in our flat dwell happily here ,
i used think about the dove family
 i see in front of my room in the next multistoried flat.
They dont have furnitures,lights,kitchen or any solid things for comfort.
Still they are happy to live under the sky.
I wished i was a free flying dove in the sky
 but i need my beloveds also to be birds.
Otherwise i shud find a partner..
its quite difficult!!!

Unknown baby

 Last night many times i woke up.
Many dreams ruin my sleep.
Why do i see many dreams i dont know.
 Some i remember and some not.
While waking up i usually feel sad but gradually it fades.
 I used to realize my surroundings.
One day i saw a dream...
my baby in cradle sleeping in front of a/c.
i sleep in other room
and thinking that baby would die of chill.
i ran and i saw the baby...
an unknown baby for me!!!!
 who will be that???
 will i ignore any such babies in my life
or ran and hug it to my life?

Chilled morning

Today it's very cold.
Maybe same as yesterday but I feel very much.
 These days I rarely see sun rays.
 Here it's cool and closed all around.
I love to sleep tight such mornings under my comfort wraps.
Yesterday my kid vomited.
 Probably cos of indigestion.
 He eats lot of chocolates and cheese.
 I think all together his small stomach can't incorporate all heavy stuffs together.
 Any way today,by Gods grace he is feeling better.
  I see my kid is blessed with warm hugs I prayed for always.