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"Red Dominance"

ആകാശം കണ്ണാടി ആയിരുന്നെങ്കിൽ!

ആകാശം  കണ്ണാടി ആയിരുന്നെങ്കിൽ ,
മഴവില്ലിനു നിറമുണ്ടാവില്ല!
ഞാൻ  ശ്വസിക്കുമോ ...എന്നറിയില്ല ...!
മഴയും കാറ്റും എല്ലാം എനിക്ക് അറിയാത്ത പദങ്ങളാവും ...

എന്നാൽ ,
കണ്ണുകളിൽ പ്രണയത്തിന്ടെ മഷി എഴുതി
വാകുകളിൽ നിറങ്ങൾ കലർത്തി
പ്രതീക്ഷകളിൽ ആർത്തി ഒളിപ്പിച്ചു
ചമയേണ്ടി വരില്ലായിരുന്നു....

ഒരിക്കൽ...
ഞാൻ  നിന്നോട്  പറയും
എന്നെ പറ്റി ...
എന്റെ തൊലി നീ കാണുന്ന ഗോതമ്പ് നിറമല്ല
 അതിനു എന്റെ എല്ലുകളേക്കാൾ മിനുസവും
വെളുപ്പിനേക്കാൾ നിറവും ഉണ്ട് ...
നല്ല ഉറപ്പും ....

ആകാശം  കണ്ണാടി  ആയിരുന്നെങ്കിൽ
വാക്കുകൾക്ക്  ജീവനും
കണ്ണുകളിൽ നിറങ്ങളുമുണ്ടാവില്ല
എനിക്ക് ആരോടും ഒന്നും പറയാനുമുണ്ടാവില്ല !

Heavenly Mushrooms!

Grandma is telling stories....Her childhood stories...she is beautiful and bubbly...I like her white hair than her beautiful big belly where my mom slept once.She is saying about her walk to school from home with friends and its fun..Its really enjoyable that I felt the coolness of rain she described about.We sat in the balcony of our home. I could see some flash from sky...
It's about to rain...rain after a long summer...no leaves danced for us...really hot...
She told...."it will rain soon..."
I felt happy to hear that...
Then a big flash accompanied by a roar happened....
"Let's go inside dear...come..."she said
I went with her...
A very dark night....power went off....
I laid on grandma's lap...she moved her fingers in my hair...
"Do u know dear....why thunder and lightning happens...?" she asked me
"I don't know..." I replied
"It's something that God remind us of heaven and hell...." she said
"Really!?....."I was amazed and wondered!!!
I asked...."how !?"
"Thunder and lightning are from hell..When fire is poured in hell...,people there cry aloud...!"
She said and breathed deeply....
"Then how he remind us about heaven....?" I asked....
"The rain poured to earth with some magic seeds in it reminds the heaven..."she said...
"Magic seeds!....what's that?" I sat straight and asked her...
"Have you seen mushrooms after rain, dear...?...."she asked...
"Yea....with sparkling eyes...I answered...
"Those are the seeds thrown from heaven....!!They are alive...can hear and talk to you..."she told
"But we see lot like dat...."I said
"God is always naughty...we should find among, the real heavenly one..."
Grandma is thinking something else....
It rained....angry rain!....
"Grandma..." I called her...
"What is the fortune of that magic mushrooms? "I asked eagerly
"They are the angels who come to us...God has sent them to us
Those seeds come out as beautiful mushrooms and they fly invisible from it to whom they need....
Millions of angels are here flying around now...."
"Can we see them grandma....?" I asked
"Why not ?u can surely....close your eyes and sleep well now...dear...."
My eyes filled with lot of flying angels......some dressed in white with crowns,some in pink with handful of flowers....
It's still raining....fragrant rain after an interval...
I felt the coolness that grandma told about rains in her stories...


Next morning....
I looked to the mirror...
Wrinkles on my face...I looked similar to my grandma...her smile I saw last night , I saw that in the mirror in front of me....!

How come years passed so soon....I thought....
No...!....it was a dream...!
Maybe...I whispered to nobody...
I heard the steps coming forward..
She came with a tray of breakfast and some medicines along with it...
My maid...I like her..not like my daughter...she smile always...
Yesterday's sedative made you sleep like this....you will be alright soon...have this food and let's have medicines too...she was not stopping her talks...
I was not stopping thinking about grandma...rain...mushroom...angels....
I saw a big street down my window with cars in a long queue...
Green light!...Suddenly the cars moved...
I told my maid to get me a mushroom....!
"A red one with golden dots...!"
She told me..."we will get it...But before that ,have these medicines...
I nodded...thinking I could find at least one angel!!....

Bloody heart!

When I moved towards
Pulling the street lights back
I felt very tough to go on...
The doctor said....
" U are perfectly alright"
But i feel sometimes
My heart go on a vacation,
Without my signature...
Soon I will dismiss u...
Bloody heart!

Spicy Chicken...

I didn't killed
But I grabbed its heart...
I plucked its liver.....
I removed its skin...
That heart ,liver or skin had no shadows...
I fetched for its soul shadows...
It don't have a soul to talk to me left back..
May be that's why he said,
"It's delicious, mainly the breast piece"
I enjoyed its blood red taste ....

Pocessive..."me"....

Now my head is paining
The brain cells are tired,
My only slaves
Who work for me...
They need rest...
But I will not allow...
Iam cruel but I enjoy it...
Let those brain cells suffer...
Till death...!

Paper Boat....

I wish I had a boat....
A Paper boat!
I wish I could sail in it...
And one evening,
I sailed in my paper boat,
That I made in my childhood...
I saw the horizon nearer n nearer...
My ultimate destination,
That I wished always....

Jan 17....beautiful twilight!

It's really a great pleasure to foresee the life in the car rushing towards a new life.I see lights all over.I don't know whether its my dream, I wish to see or else somebody simply lit it for my sake.Any way this evening I am here in this city embraced with charming n dazzling street lights. I loved it.

                              U know days before 17th ,was restless and worried. Now it's okay.:)

                                   Before jan 17th 2013....

                                    It was the most bubbly childhood with lot of fear n ignorance.
                                    Then it changed to sweet teen with fairies flying around.
                                    My romantic days with ripe cherries n fragrant blossoms.
                                    Those cherries were bitter to taste but I realized late after hugging my
                                    Cute and most handsome petal bloomed in the lost yesterday.
                                     My eyes couldn't see the world in its color thereafter....
                                     But the petal I had in my treasury made me to pave a path to life ahead...
                           
                                     Those days when I was busy with friends and their words, made me to think less about the past I left with pain. It was again the days of ignorance in the air I breath. May be I just closed my eyes to forget the night mares I had before.

                                       Without a  knock ,he opened the door to a new life. I saw some streams flowing in me to make me cool and calm.  
 
                                        My thoughts got saturated to a single focal point. And that was the day I waited for.Sometimes I think I say simply I waited for the day because nothing can give perfection in life except the mischief  thoughts I dream for myself.
 
                                         Now it's the present days going on....warm yellow lights....day and night rule my heart...it's nice...still I feel something odd...inside my heart where u can't feel me....
I dream lot and most of dreams doesn't favor me...they too wanna make me feel bad...